When I was finally a teenager, I was so happy I became the 'in' crowd and before I know it, I was out of teens. Then it was still cool to get out of teens because this shows that you get to act all grown up and pretend like you're maturing. Anyway time really does fly because next year I am a quarter century old! OMG. This is so so so so so scary. If you were a couple for 25 years, you will be having the 'silver' anniversary! It is THAT LONG.
Age just hit me that it is NOT just a number and it makes sense why people are talking about it all the time. Why Jennifer Aniston becomes the talk of town because her body is so hot even if she's already 40. Why botox is like religion to some people.
I know I know the theme of my blog - Another Phase of Life reflects what is going on in my life now but hey it feels like it's the turning point of my life. Work, Getting married, have kids. I am moving on too fast now. It still feels scary. What if I can't stick to one partner? What if i am not capable of taking care of my kids? What if i am bad mum? What if I cant afford my house? What if I don't achieve what I want in life?
I guess I can sit and wonder what's gonna happen in the future.
Or.
Just make the plunge - that's what life is about. Sometimes there is just no time to think about what you can do but to just DO IT. like Nike does! :P
Monday, August 3, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
more like twilight obsession
So.... One week after finishing the twilight saga - I am even more obsessed than ever. I think even the word obsessed cannot explain how crazy do i feel towards this whole collection. Seriously, I am not kidding! I have tried every way possible to overcome it but so far, i have not succeeded. Not even close! It's like this damn drug in my head. It's like cigarettes to ADrian. Argh.
I've tried numbing it by talking about it all the time until I get really bored. In fact talking about it makes me even more excited. I talked to this friend about twilight for a whole three hours the other day and I almost forgot to eat, well we both forgot to eat. and drink. I've tried youtubing it until I get sick of Robert Pattinson with his cacat face YET he mesmerize me even more with his sarcastic remarks and sexy British Accent. Then I tried to reduce withdrawal symptoms by watching Twilight while waiting for New Moon to be released and I think I've watched the movie 4 times in a week and yet not get tired of it. I know the dialogue by heart now and which song plays on the background.
IT IS THAT SERIOUS!
and I think my high school friends would have an idea of how crazy I can be. I think my last obsession was Jay Chou whom i also ate, sleep and dreamt of. HAHA. I think the level of obsession is the same except that now I am like 8 years older and I am supposed to be more mature *sighs* I guess some things never change.
I wish I hadn't read the saga though because now it feels empty. I need some excitements in life. I want a life filled with whirlwind love and romance! LOL. gosh i should stop embarassing myself here.?
Oh Twilight Twilight can you please please get away from my brain? or can someone just give me a new obsession?
I've tried numbing it by talking about it all the time until I get really bored. In fact talking about it makes me even more excited. I talked to this friend about twilight for a whole three hours the other day and I almost forgot to eat, well we both forgot to eat. and drink. I've tried youtubing it until I get sick of Robert Pattinson with his cacat face YET he mesmerize me even more with his sarcastic remarks and sexy British Accent. Then I tried to reduce withdrawal symptoms by watching Twilight while waiting for New Moon to be released and I think I've watched the movie 4 times in a week and yet not get tired of it. I know the dialogue by heart now and which song plays on the background.
IT IS THAT SERIOUS!
and I think my high school friends would have an idea of how crazy I can be. I think my last obsession was Jay Chou whom i also ate, sleep and dreamt of. HAHA. I think the level of obsession is the same except that now I am like 8 years older and I am supposed to be more mature *sighs* I guess some things never change.
I wish I hadn't read the saga though because now it feels empty. I need some excitements in life. I want a life filled with whirlwind love and romance! LOL. gosh i should stop embarassing myself here.?
Oh Twilight Twilight can you please please get away from my brain? or can someone just give me a new obsession?
Sunday, July 26, 2009
twilight fever
I have to admit I am a bit slower than the rest. Well, a bit is way understated but I have finally succumb to the twilight fever. Smart ass me finished three of its book in just 6 days. It took longer for me to finish the first book because I have already watched the movie before I read it and although it was different, the plot was too predictable. Anyway i read the three other books in speedlight because it was AWESOME! I hate to admit it but the actor and actresses in the movie were very well picked. I was addicted man. I eat, sleep, drink, go to toilet and dream of the twilight characters. I spend hours with the book after i finish work and i was totally in my own world for the whole week. I went clubbing and all i could think of was the book!
Second book - new moon had so much heartwrenching moments that my heart ache along with it and then there was a twist and it washed all the sad sad parts away. Eclipse was my favourite of the series because all my favourite characters had equal parts in it and it was all very lovey dovey and lots of jealousy and stuffs. Breaking dawn was interesting because there were more twist but i was expecting a bit more but no one can hate a happy ending! HAHA.
After finishing all four, I felt relieved that my eat shit drink twilight days were over but boy was i wrong, i missed it, it felt like i have no purpose of life anymore and it's making me want to watch new moon in a movie even more! SO now i have nothing to read and lots of hungry cravings for a good old love story.
Well i guess all good things have to come to an end. i wish i can stop being so obsessed with it (i am youtubing about it too much too!) that i can finally go back to my life! i need to get a life!!
Second book - new moon had so much heartwrenching moments that my heart ache along with it and then there was a twist and it washed all the sad sad parts away. Eclipse was my favourite of the series because all my favourite characters had equal parts in it and it was all very lovey dovey and lots of jealousy and stuffs. Breaking dawn was interesting because there were more twist but i was expecting a bit more but no one can hate a happy ending! HAHA.
After finishing all four, I felt relieved that my eat shit drink twilight days were over but boy was i wrong, i missed it, it felt like i have no purpose of life anymore and it's making me want to watch new moon in a movie even more! SO now i have nothing to read and lots of hungry cravings for a good old love story.
Well i guess all good things have to come to an end. i wish i can stop being so obsessed with it (i am youtubing about it too much too!) that i can finally go back to my life! i need to get a life!!
Friday, July 17, 2009
What has Malaysia becoming into?
I always feel sorry for my country whenever my friends on my facebook list have to talk about how much they hate politicians in a social network like facebook. I am even more saddened when my fellow Msian friends in Australia is disturbed by what's happening back home. But I do understand being the leader of a country is not easy because you can't please everyone. Yet in Malaysia, nobody has so much anger and frustration with the government as much as us Malaysian Chinese.
I dont care about what trouble this will bring me but we were never treated equally. We made more money because we are smart yet we pay taxes to feed a bunch of ppl who can't do their jobs well. It's no wonder we run from our country. It's no wonder we make up a bunch of excuses to run from paying tax. I sometimes dont blame the police for taking corruption because the higher ranks one ate up all their wages. few hundred dollars a month for a normal policeman is not enough to feed his family. It's no wonder they get tempted. People who are rich and powerful gets richer and people who are poor will remain poor (although this is also happening elsewhere in the world).
If it's not for my family, if it's not for my friends or the food, I would never never never over my sorry ass go back to Malaysia for holidays once a year. Because I feel very unsafe when I go out. I dont know when I'll get snatched. I dont know when i'll get kidnapped/murdered and they will never find out who did it. I dont know when we malaysian chinese would lose the littlest amount of place in this country.
It is a pity because Malaysia is such a beautiful place. Yet governed by a bunch of unbelievebly corrupted people. People who are still elected to do the job eventhough they do it in the grossest manner.
Do we actually have a choice? I really don't know.
I dont care about what trouble this will bring me but we were never treated equally. We made more money because we are smart yet we pay taxes to feed a bunch of ppl who can't do their jobs well. It's no wonder we run from our country. It's no wonder we make up a bunch of excuses to run from paying tax. I sometimes dont blame the police for taking corruption because the higher ranks one ate up all their wages. few hundred dollars a month for a normal policeman is not enough to feed his family. It's no wonder they get tempted. People who are rich and powerful gets richer and people who are poor will remain poor (although this is also happening elsewhere in the world).
If it's not for my family, if it's not for my friends or the food, I would never never never over my sorry ass go back to Malaysia for holidays once a year. Because I feel very unsafe when I go out. I dont know when I'll get snatched. I dont know when i'll get kidnapped/murdered and they will never find out who did it. I dont know when we malaysian chinese would lose the littlest amount of place in this country.
It is a pity because Malaysia is such a beautiful place. Yet governed by a bunch of unbelievebly corrupted people. People who are still elected to do the job eventhough they do it in the grossest manner.
Do we actually have a choice? I really don't know.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
boring
So. No updates lately because life is pretty boring here. The weather is too cold to go out at night. Too much rain makes me lazy too. I'd rather cozzy up at home and watch tv. Weekdays are spent working and Weekends are half working and half partying/movie/eating/coffee. Can't complain because life at this stage is extremely peaceful. normal is good. i like normal.
Nothing new too. the last time I update, i bragged about my car and bag. HAHA. Hmm, maybe I can talk about Adrian's new investment (which I happened to chip in a little too) - his new restaurant. It's not a big place but cozy and more like a take out kinda place. guai los love the food. I dont visit him a lot because I am like a wood when it comes to things i do not know how to do. I only know how to dispense/check scripts and give medical advices. LOL.
And been reading a little too, finally caught up with the Twilight craze. Cant remember when was the last time i bury myself in books. The storyline is really good but the style of writing was just so-so. It did bring me into the mood but it doesnt deliver that sort of "blast" and addictive-ness I was hoping it would.
And I got involved in a freaky incident last night. We usually only have 1 staff at night with a pharmacist and this guy brought in this script which was rather obvious that it was forged. There were two medicines on it and one was a controlled drug item (something like morphine). I never thought I would be able to identify a forged script but I did, right from the beginning. It was freaky because I didnt know what to do. Should I call the police? what if it is a real deal and the police are busy ppl you know. So i rang up the doc to verify the script and he said he hasnt written one with a controlled drug. i am like F**k. So what should i do now? In theory i should have just rang the police but I was too nervous and decided to confront that big guy. Not a great idea but he managed to grab the script and left. DAMNIT someone else could have given him if they're not careful. Anyway, they got caught in the end in another pharmacy. AIKs, my extremely lack of experience nearly got me into trouble. i was shaking so badly after that.
Boss has left for vacation too, leaving me to solve issues in the pharmacy. mind you, i have 20 staffs i need to look out for. To make things worse, it was the flu season and many ppl got sick. I need to replace ppl without exceeding the budget. damn. wasn't an easy task.
So.. that pretty much sums up recent happenings in my life. i hope you enjoyed reading it. HAHA
Nothing new too. the last time I update, i bragged about my car and bag. HAHA. Hmm, maybe I can talk about Adrian's new investment (which I happened to chip in a little too) - his new restaurant. It's not a big place but cozy and more like a take out kinda place. guai los love the food. I dont visit him a lot because I am like a wood when it comes to things i do not know how to do. I only know how to dispense/check scripts and give medical advices. LOL.
And been reading a little too, finally caught up with the Twilight craze. Cant remember when was the last time i bury myself in books. The storyline is really good but the style of writing was just so-so. It did bring me into the mood but it doesnt deliver that sort of "blast" and addictive-ness I was hoping it would.
And I got involved in a freaky incident last night. We usually only have 1 staff at night with a pharmacist and this guy brought in this script which was rather obvious that it was forged. There were two medicines on it and one was a controlled drug item (something like morphine). I never thought I would be able to identify a forged script but I did, right from the beginning. It was freaky because I didnt know what to do. Should I call the police? what if it is a real deal and the police are busy ppl you know. So i rang up the doc to verify the script and he said he hasnt written one with a controlled drug. i am like F**k. So what should i do now? In theory i should have just rang the police but I was too nervous and decided to confront that big guy. Not a great idea but he managed to grab the script and left. DAMNIT someone else could have given him if they're not careful. Anyway, they got caught in the end in another pharmacy. AIKs, my extremely lack of experience nearly got me into trouble. i was shaking so badly after that.
Boss has left for vacation too, leaving me to solve issues in the pharmacy. mind you, i have 20 staffs i need to look out for. To make things worse, it was the flu season and many ppl got sick. I need to replace ppl without exceeding the budget. damn. wasn't an easy task.
So.. that pretty much sums up recent happenings in my life. i hope you enjoyed reading it. HAHA
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
What I think about my first ex
I am 24 this year. Not a big age but it feels like everything has only just begun. I've got so much more to learn, to see and to live. So anyway, one day when i was just being really bored, started facebooking and noticed Alex (my first ex!) had a lot of wall posts on his profile. Curious, i decided to look into it and oh my, found out that he has actually proposed! It doesn't shock me, really, because I know he is attracted to commitments (sounds weird?) and he believes in 'the one'. The bigger shock came when I was talking to one of my SAM chi muis and realize he is gonna marry current MCA president's daughter. BUT the biggest shock came even much later when I realize his list of VIPS in his wedding.
HEY, those are ppl too i know, but how often have you got all the hot shots of your country in one venue and that venue isnt even about something important. HAHA. omg, there were past prime ministers (with an s!!!), current prime minister and other miscellaneous prime ministers! i'm not star struck or anything, I bump into christy chung in shopping malls or andy lay in a hotel lobby before and I didnt walk up to them to get autographs (mainly because i am lagging a little!) but those are BIG ppl, of msia!
Suddenly, i feel proud to have dated him. HAHA.
wonder what's gonna happen to my second ex or third ex? marry Megan Fox or something? LOL
HEY, those are ppl too i know, but how often have you got all the hot shots of your country in one venue and that venue isnt even about something important. HAHA. omg, there were past prime ministers (with an s!!!), current prime minister and other miscellaneous prime ministers! i'm not star struck or anything, I bump into christy chung in shopping malls or andy lay in a hotel lobby before and I didnt walk up to them to get autographs (mainly because i am lagging a little!) but those are BIG ppl, of msia!
Suddenly, i feel proud to have dated him. HAHA.
wonder what's gonna happen to my second ex or third ex? marry Megan Fox or something? LOL
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Work
When we were in uni, the 'matured working' people would always tell us that uni life is the best days of your life. Back then I was in uni, and I thought the constant pressure of achievement kept me from enjoying life to its fullest. I hate exam days when nights are days and days are nights but of course, they were days of partying, of holidaying and not worry about exams, mahjoing til the wee hours of the morning that i wish i now have the energy to do!
But true enough, as they the 'wise' people had warned that working life is like a no return. Once you stepped into it, it's like your feet being stuck to mud. Of course I enjoy the financial independence that I once yearned so much (because i save a lot during uni days so my parents didn't need to spend so much on me!) and I have a great job with a good income that allows me to indulge in anything I want. BUT it is these indulgences that kill me.
It feels like i can't get out of it already. I have to keep working until I die. And i will be getting a house next year, i would die even faster. Anyway the reason I am whining is not because of the course of life I am going through now but I just had a bad day at work yesterday and it really demotivated me a lot. Sorry I am weak but this is who I am.
Being pharmacist in charge, I am liable for what staffs do, well this of course includes their stupidity, their not-listening-properly-and-then-puts-the-blame-on-you problem which I find it very hard to swallow. Honestly why should i be blame if you made a mistake? why should i be liable when if i were you, i wouldn't have done it in the first place?!
BUT this what a boss is supposed to do. It's like a waitress being complained by a customer, the manager has to step up and apologize. ANd honestly I am no boss material because I believe your actions are your own consequences. I can't convince myself to buy into shares for this pharmacy because i really don't think I know how to manage people.
ARgh. so here I am stucked! I need to be boss to feed my indulgences yet I know I won't be satisfied by a meager income if i am not boss? I am just like a big lost greedy monster. I guess I can't have both then?
But true enough, as they the 'wise' people had warned that working life is like a no return. Once you stepped into it, it's like your feet being stuck to mud. Of course I enjoy the financial independence that I once yearned so much (because i save a lot during uni days so my parents didn't need to spend so much on me!) and I have a great job with a good income that allows me to indulge in anything I want. BUT it is these indulgences that kill me.
It feels like i can't get out of it already. I have to keep working until I die. And i will be getting a house next year, i would die even faster. Anyway the reason I am whining is not because of the course of life I am going through now but I just had a bad day at work yesterday and it really demotivated me a lot. Sorry I am weak but this is who I am.
Being pharmacist in charge, I am liable for what staffs do, well this of course includes their stupidity, their not-listening-properly-and-then-puts-the-blame-on-you problem which I find it very hard to swallow. Honestly why should i be blame if you made a mistake? why should i be liable when if i were you, i wouldn't have done it in the first place?!
BUT this what a boss is supposed to do. It's like a waitress being complained by a customer, the manager has to step up and apologize. ANd honestly I am no boss material because I believe your actions are your own consequences. I can't convince myself to buy into shares for this pharmacy because i really don't think I know how to manage people.
ARgh. so here I am stucked! I need to be boss to feed my indulgences yet I know I won't be satisfied by a meager income if i am not boss? I am just like a big lost greedy monster. I guess I can't have both then?
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