Was just reading thru Qian's blog and it reminded me the 'twist of fate' I was going thru two years ago. It is very hard to make decisions when 1) you don't what's the right thing to choose or 2) it involves your future and 3)you wished you had both!
High school year, success is define as good grades. College years, success is when you get into the best uni and be the coolest kid in the block. Get out of uni, success is when you get good job offers. 20s is when you spend most of your time trying to make decisions that you think is right.
The definition of being successful varies in individuals and it varies at different point of a time. Sometimes it's family, sometimes it's money, sometimes it's fame, sometimes it's religion. But there is not one time when you can have everything.
And this is when balance comes in. I think it's good to be not extreme. To be rich but have family. Probably not filthy rich but just enough to make give you a comfortable life. To have career but not forget about friends too.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Decisions
Have you ever wondered....
why everyone make right decisions except you??
and even if you've made a decision that you swear to stick thru thick and thin,
does it mean that it is the RIGHT decision to make?
why everyone make right decisions except you??
and even if you've made a decision that you swear to stick thru thick and thin,
does it mean that it is the RIGHT decision to make?
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Malaysian Dream Girls
I've always loved watching reality shows, well not ALL but some interesting ones like survival, apprentice and AmericanNextTopModel. But I definitely hate shows like finding true love or perfect partner by competing with 100 thousand other girls who want it for money.
Anyway, I think Malaysia has their own fair share of reality shows. Being overseas, I am not blessed to watch them when I like. But Malaysian Dream girls, despite having lots and lots of Manglish - and i dont think ang mohs would understand, is one of the really good ones I continue to watch until the end of the season.
It is a very Malaysian show - racist, hypocrates, cat fighting etc makes me feel closer to home. LOL. sometimes I wonder how would I manage to get what they are trying to relay because as Asians, we were NOT taught to be expressive. What's more, not everybody has a good grasp of the english language. Malaysia mah.
Anyway, I watched Season one and Season two is now showing. The production people knows the right part to edit and cut and add it into the show to make it interesting. Season two has improved because more people could speak better english and 2) more cat fights - cuz there's one particular confronting angry cat in the show and 3) it has it's climax-es.
Well, you guys should watch it - with less expectations. It's short enough to fill time. HAHA
Anyway, I think Malaysia has their own fair share of reality shows. Being overseas, I am not blessed to watch them when I like. But Malaysian Dream girls, despite having lots and lots of Manglish - and i dont think ang mohs would understand, is one of the really good ones I continue to watch until the end of the season.
It is a very Malaysian show - racist, hypocrates, cat fighting etc makes me feel closer to home. LOL. sometimes I wonder how would I manage to get what they are trying to relay because as Asians, we were NOT taught to be expressive. What's more, not everybody has a good grasp of the english language. Malaysia mah.
Anyway, I watched Season one and Season two is now showing. The production people knows the right part to edit and cut and add it into the show to make it interesting. Season two has improved because more people could speak better english and 2) more cat fights - cuz there's one particular confronting angry cat in the show and 3) it has it's climax-es.
Well, you guys should watch it - with less expectations. It's short enough to fill time. HAHA
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Earth Hour
For some reason, Earth hour this year has been widely publicized is blogs around the world. Being environmental conscious is probably becoming the 'in' thing now. Maybe the effect of global warming is taking it's toll on us - tsunami, bush fires, wild snows, fancy name hurricanes. It's. very. scary. I don't feel much when I am in Malaysia but I feel different in Australia. You just know when it is different. Like last year when winter came late and Adelaide experienced the hottest 10 consecutive days, and I almost thought that the weather wouldn't return to normal. It was just like when I was in second year of uni when Malaysia had the worst case of haze. It was so misty and dark and smelly that I remembered telling my friend, "I think doomsday is coming!". Well, perhaps after lots of sci-fi movies later, the 'idea' of doomsday plants deep. I'm not a christian myself but I do believe that humans will one day wipe out themselves due to their insensitivity.
So, what did I do on earth hour? I switched off my lights because THE BF was sleeping and didn't want to wake up for dinner, yet I kept the TV on. HAHAHA. so fail! Anyway, I did manage to wake him up a few minutes later and guess what, we rushed out of the house without switching off the lights! But thank god we were just outside and we hurried in to switch everything off and then we went for dinner. So BASICALLY i didn't sin on Earth hour but let others did! HAHAHA. I planned to just chill outside with friends but the bf ruined it cuz he couldnt wake up for dinner. Hope to do better next year!
Anyway, eventhough we are no where near conserving energy or recycling enough, I think the idea itself of saving the earth is a good start! And i guess that is what Earth Hour is all about. To create awareness of how we're harming the earth. Maybe we're not doing enough but I think we'll get there eventually. Well.. hopefully....
So, what did I do on earth hour? I switched off my lights because THE BF was sleeping and didn't want to wake up for dinner, yet I kept the TV on. HAHAHA. so fail! Anyway, I did manage to wake him up a few minutes later and guess what, we rushed out of the house without switching off the lights! But thank god we were just outside and we hurried in to switch everything off and then we went for dinner. So BASICALLY i didn't sin on Earth hour but let others did! HAHAHA. I planned to just chill outside with friends but the bf ruined it cuz he couldnt wake up for dinner. Hope to do better next year!
Anyway, eventhough we are no where near conserving energy or recycling enough, I think the idea itself of saving the earth is a good start! And i guess that is what Earth Hour is all about. To create awareness of how we're harming the earth. Maybe we're not doing enough but I think we'll get there eventually. Well.. hopefully....
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Irrational
The bad things about me - rational and indecisive. A very powerful combination that always lead to things NOT getting DONE! man, sucks to be me!
ARGH. freaking stress. I just stress about every little thing. Even when I need to plan for a holiday! A car! A house! A career! I am a perfectionist. Every thing I buy, everything I do has to be the best possible way it can get done. I either do it or dont do it at all. It's always all or nothing.
Sometimes I just wish I am more irrational. So that I don't need to think until my head bursts, until my brains cells degenerate. maybe i won't have long to live and if so, i hope I can die happy. HAHA
How many times have I want to buy something yet fail to because I am too rational to get it and how many times have I just took the easy way out when I can't decide - and run! It always harder facing the problem than to run away from it.
But how long can I run away from it? There are still heaps that still need to get done.
AAAAIIIIIIHHHHHHhhhhHHhhh..........
ARGH. freaking stress. I just stress about every little thing. Even when I need to plan for a holiday! A car! A house! A career! I am a perfectionist. Every thing I buy, everything I do has to be the best possible way it can get done. I either do it or dont do it at all. It's always all or nothing.
Sometimes I just wish I am more irrational. So that I don't need to think until my head bursts, until my brains cells degenerate. maybe i won't have long to live and if so, i hope I can die happy. HAHA
How many times have I want to buy something yet fail to because I am too rational to get it and how many times have I just took the easy way out when I can't decide - and run! It always harder facing the problem than to run away from it.
But how long can I run away from it? There are still heaps that still need to get done.
AAAAIIIIIIHHHHHHhhhhHHhhh..........
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Choices in life
Gosh. My title sounds so emo! LOL..
Anyways, it is not meant to be an emo post. If in any way it does sound emo, please blame it on waking up from a long nap, thank you.
In life, there is always so much decisions to make. These decisions seem to climb exponentially as we age. During school days, it was just about grades. Money? what money? Then after SPM, it was the crucial which-occupation-should-i-choose dilemma. Then it was - where should I go for uni? Those were the days when parents had veto power to overturn your decisions. Those times were when your parents help you decide.
Now, coming to the working world. It is about what car to buy? How can i make more money to buy a house? When should I get married? I am not ready for kids?! Dont worry I am neither in any of the stage yet. I am, however, in stage 1.
Ever since learning how to drive (on roads), car has been the biggest problem of my life. Well, that was before all the other stage 2 and subsequent levels of trouble came into my life. It was a problem because 1) i am a typical woman driver, i have no idea what's happening to my car UNTIL it starts falling apart 2) i know nuts about cars. (they are just something you use to move around) 3) me just dont like changes. i like sticking to one car.
So. being a woman driver, I had no idea what happened to it, I think my car is falling apart now. Can't blame it because it is already 19 years old. OMG. almost as old as I am. I drive a 1990 Nissan Sylvia btw. I love it because it has quite a loud exhaust and this exhaust thing is very useful when it comes to expressing your erm, anger. It allows you to tell people, "hey you drive too frigging slow!" or "dont stop as you like, idiot!". Anyways, i digressed, it is simple to drive and has power everything - windows, power stearing, automatic doors. If i drove this back in 90s, I would be Brad Pitt/ David Beckham of the era ok?
The point is, I have to change this lovely car of mine - before it gets towed away by RAA. Maybe someone should just bang it and since it has no value anymore, they might as well just reimburse me some $$ *choi choi*. Now, upon worrying about that it will die on me anytime soon (i work til 9pm at night at a very secluded place!), i have to make the next decision to get a decent car.
Here comes all the devils. 1) Do i get a car I really really want but pay heaps for it? or 2) Get something i can afford and well, hopefully learn to like it.
Me likey volkswagen Golf! And they're having a discount too. except that it is ngam ngam above my budget. But if u pay a little more, you get a nice GOLF - the car you like, won't you just die happy?! BUT if i get a Golf, i'll have to cut down on shopping, drinking, karaoke-ing to save money for a house!
And then there is another thing where you have to balance - getting a second hand or a new car? Things get more complicated when new cars now are extremely cheap! The new models have price tags equivalent to at least a 2 year old car! Bargain! But you then have to think about it being devalued REALLY quickly. But then you drive a new car with 3 years warranty that will keep you happy - at least for three years. See how it just falls apart? ERGH. I've asked so many people for their opinions and so many people have so many different opinions.
Now I wish they have this handbook that can help you decide. Money is not something I would take my risk on! Cuz me = dont have money to waste. How I wish daddy had more. So he can save me when I am poor.
So the questions lies.... How do I decide?
Anyways, it is not meant to be an emo post. If in any way it does sound emo, please blame it on waking up from a long nap, thank you.
In life, there is always so much decisions to make. These decisions seem to climb exponentially as we age. During school days, it was just about grades. Money? what money? Then after SPM, it was the crucial which-occupation-should-i-choose dilemma. Then it was - where should I go for uni? Those were the days when parents had veto power to overturn your decisions. Those times were when your parents help you decide.
Now, coming to the working world. It is about what car to buy? How can i make more money to buy a house? When should I get married? I am not ready for kids?! Dont worry I am neither in any of the stage yet. I am, however, in stage 1.
Ever since learning how to drive (on roads), car has been the biggest problem of my life. Well, that was before all the other stage 2 and subsequent levels of trouble came into my life. It was a problem because 1) i am a typical woman driver, i have no idea what's happening to my car UNTIL it starts falling apart 2) i know nuts about cars. (they are just something you use to move around) 3) me just dont like changes. i like sticking to one car.
So. being a woman driver, I had no idea what happened to it, I think my car is falling apart now. Can't blame it because it is already 19 years old. OMG. almost as old as I am. I drive a 1990 Nissan Sylvia btw. I love it because it has quite a loud exhaust and this exhaust thing is very useful when it comes to expressing your erm, anger. It allows you to tell people, "hey you drive too frigging slow!" or "dont stop as you like, idiot!". Anyways, i digressed, it is simple to drive and has power everything - windows, power stearing, automatic doors. If i drove this back in 90s, I would be Brad Pitt/ David Beckham of the era ok?
The point is, I have to change this lovely car of mine - before it gets towed away by RAA. Maybe someone should just bang it and since it has no value anymore, they might as well just reimburse me some $$ *choi choi*. Now, upon worrying about that it will die on me anytime soon (i work til 9pm at night at a very secluded place!), i have to make the next decision to get a decent car.
Here comes all the devils. 1) Do i get a car I really really want but pay heaps for it? or 2) Get something i can afford and well, hopefully learn to like it.
Me likey volkswagen Golf! And they're having a discount too. except that it is ngam ngam above my budget. But if u pay a little more, you get a nice GOLF - the car you like, won't you just die happy?! BUT if i get a Golf, i'll have to cut down on shopping, drinking, karaoke-ing to save money for a house!
And then there is another thing where you have to balance - getting a second hand or a new car? Things get more complicated when new cars now are extremely cheap! The new models have price tags equivalent to at least a 2 year old car! Bargain! But you then have to think about it being devalued REALLY quickly. But then you drive a new car with 3 years warranty that will keep you happy - at least for three years. See how it just falls apart? ERGH. I've asked so many people for their opinions and so many people have so many different opinions.
Now I wish they have this handbook that can help you decide. Money is not something I would take my risk on! Cuz me = dont have money to waste. How I wish daddy had more. So he can save me when I am poor.
So the questions lies.... How do I decide?
Friday, March 13, 2009
First post
Because I just can't bare to read my old blog of whining about exams and because I have finally entered another phase of my life, I have decided to move on to this new blog (and even changed to a different server). I guess this is life right? forget and move on. Well, your past makes you the person you are now but yet some things are meant to be right at the back of your mind.
I wouldn't want to dwell too much on the emo side of things. So, this is my blog and i can really write whatever I want to - rantings, emo-ings, yuk ma things, ham sap things. HAHA. It's about ME ME ME! woohoo
See how my mood actually changes? :P
Honestly, I've missed blogging. A LOT. I always thought it was just something , like puberty. You like it (or maybe not) but you grow out of it after a while. Seems that blogging is also a place where you can voice out stuffs/ideas that are hard to put into words from the mouth. I think I write better than i speak - Quoted from my colleagues who cried after reading the cards i wrote them. LOL. I am exaggerating a little but it's true! how many people have come back to me, telling me they've kept the note I wrote them waaaayyyyyy back during school days (why does it seem so long ago??). I am precious :)
Ok. time to stop blowing my own trumpet. Thanks guys for reading :) updates coming soon!
I wouldn't want to dwell too much on the emo side of things. So, this is my blog and i can really write whatever I want to - rantings, emo-ings, yuk ma things, ham sap things. HAHA. It's about ME ME ME! woohoo
See how my mood actually changes? :P
Honestly, I've missed blogging. A LOT. I always thought it was just something , like puberty. You like it (or maybe not) but you grow out of it after a while. Seems that blogging is also a place where you can voice out stuffs/ideas that are hard to put into words from the mouth. I think I write better than i speak - Quoted from my colleagues who cried after reading the cards i wrote them. LOL. I am exaggerating a little but it's true! how many people have come back to me, telling me they've kept the note I wrote them waaaayyyyyy back during school days (why does it seem so long ago??). I am precious :)
Ok. time to stop blowing my own trumpet. Thanks guys for reading :) updates coming soon!
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