Judgmental

In my two years career of being a pharmacist, i cannot help myself but be judgmental because it is the instinct that helps me differentiate dodgy people from people who are 'real'. You see, one of my very hated role, is to make sure that medicines do not fall in the hands of BAD people and eventhough i do not understand why we should be put thru verbal abuse at work all the time, i still manage to understand why we are the first row of defence. It is a bit like saving the planet (recycling) - your role can be extremely small but if everyone does the same, it can still be a big impact. I can say we have a lot of druggies here in Australia - either they are addicted to pain killers themselves or they convert otc drugs to illicit drugs and make money from it. So I have this instinct called judgement where i'll act as if i don't have that stock they want when they first come in rather than rejecting the sale thereafter, which often ends up very messy - like shouting at your face and throwing things on the floor.

So i was taught to be judgmental and eventhough it is bad practice in pharmacy - it is better to be safe than sorry!

and so what do you think comes into my mind when i saw a video clip on how some malay people was using a hammer to break thru car windows and i see some police standing around the car and then i see a chinese guy finally climbing out of the car with blood over his head. He was then punched by malay guys in plain clothes on the head repeatedly. Immediately I thought to myself, why are they so racist? I mean I knew those people with a hammer and who threw punches weren't police - they were callmen and who the hell gave them the authority to take justice into their hands? is it because the guy in the car is a chinese and the rest are all malay that makes them think they are powerful than we are. I am sorry but I am judgmental and even after i knew that the chinese guy steal from old people, I still do not think he deserve the type of abuse he was put thru. stopped in the middle of the road and being treated like a criminal with a gun or any weapon.

i am judgmental because no matter what kinda video clip i see online about my country that involves malay - the word racist would come into my mind. I am sorry but I think I am allowed to be judgmental because we chinese have lost our rights and being in a country where the malay population is growing exponentially, i feel like we have been repressed. I am judgmental because the country made me judgmental.

And eventhough I live in a land so foreign i feel alone, yet I feel safe, I feel civilized and I feel respected and that i know my rights of a human being will not be taken away from me.