sometimes i don't know how i got here

As the title indicates, I don't know how did i get here, where I am now. Is it fate? Is it destiny? Who decides what you choose?

How from failing chemistry to getting A1. From wanting to do psychology or anything to do with maths to getting deciding pharmacy. From failing tests in SAM to getting a very high TER in the end! From barely making it thru the first two years of the pharmacy course but graduated with honours by the end of fourth year. From worrying about competing with Aussie students to getting a job before i graduated. From being a first year pharmacist to being pharmacist in charge.

Seriously? Maybe it's hardwork but i definitely have someone shining over me. I just feel so blessed. But...... who helped choose my path?

and would I still be lucky in the future?

my friend

I have a friend. I have a friend who has been acting strange for the past two years. She shy away from people and isolate herself somewhere far far away. Even when she was living close by, it is as if she was never there at all. Better to be far because at least distance is an excuse. She convinces herself that she is happy, that love is all she need. She tries to join in when she wants to but she fails because she has lost all contacts with the rest. But then even without friends she still says she's happy. The once happy go lucky girl with lots of friends now becomes extremely contented staying home all day watching movies online, talking to her bf on skype and thinks as if the world outside is poisonous.

What kind of guy would isolate the gf from her close friends? What kind of guy would argue with the gf just because someone ELSE put her past pics online? What kind of guy would punish his gf for something that wasn't her own doing? What kind of guy who psychos his gf that she didnt need friends because of his status? I think even Prince William doesnt impose on his gf like that.

Really, it doesnt matter for her good friend to be left as clueless as the rest is. It doesnt matter what kind of excuse he has for his gf that made her so crazy about this relationship. It doesnt matter if her good friend tries to communicate but instead causes more problem.

She doesn't know what to believe anymore. To trust that this friend of hers still has sanity and logic in her? or to be like everyone else and just ignore her?

quarter life crisis

When I was finally a teenager, I was so happy I became the 'in' crowd and before I know it, I was out of teens. Then it was still cool to get out of teens because this shows that you get to act all grown up and pretend like you're maturing. Anyway time really does fly because next year I am a quarter century old! OMG. This is so so so so so scary. If you were a couple for 25 years, you will be having the 'silver' anniversary! It is THAT LONG.

Age just hit me that it is NOT just a number and it makes sense why people are talking about it all the time. Why Jennifer Aniston becomes the talk of town because her body is so hot even if she's already 40. Why botox is like religion to some people.

I know I know the theme of my blog - Another Phase of Life reflects what is going on in my life now but hey it feels like it's the turning point of my life. Work, Getting married, have kids. I am moving on too fast now. It still feels scary. What if I can't stick to one partner? What if i am not capable of taking care of my kids? What if i am bad mum? What if I cant afford my house? What if I don't achieve what I want in life?

I guess I can sit and wonder what's gonna happen in the future.

Or.

Just make the plunge - that's what life is about. Sometimes there is just no time to think about what you can do but to just DO IT. like Nike does! :P