it is okay
to need a house as collateral to buy into my pharmacy
yet not have enough no matter how much i save, for my house deposit because houses go up so much year after year - and therefore my salary is capped
it is okay
to not take a single penny from home ever since i start working yet have to pay for my education loan and still have to pay for my brother's living fees
it is okay
to take the burden on because i know my parents are old and my brother deserves the same sort of education that i was given
it is okay
when she says he is not good enough for me because i know nothing in the world would be good enough anyway for their little precious girl
but it is not okay
i try and try and i feel i am the only one struggling but i am still getting no where. i feel the world is so unfair. people born with golden spoon will still be spoonfed and people who are poor continues to be poor
but it is not okay
to put the burden on me and i feel like i am in no position to decline. why am i born to be so understanding and try to put everything on my shoulders when they are too small to carry
but it is not okay
i am trying to go for love yet let money be an obstacle to my happiness. that i have to choose sides - one which i choose will go against my values and the other if i choose, will go against my heart?
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awwwwww *hugz* don't worry ann. all the 'not oks' will be 'ok' eventually. things will sort out in itself.
ReplyDeletenot many ppl can shoulder such resp, but they 'put the burden on you' bcoz they know you r capable & a very resp person.
its a short period of frus your goin thru, but in 5 years or 10 years time, you will look back and say to yourself 'i've made it, in spite of everythin'. now that's a story to tell isnt it? ;)