When we were in uni, the 'matured working' people would always tell us that uni life is the best days of your life. Back then I was in uni, and I thought the constant pressure of achievement kept me from enjoying life to its fullest. I hate exam days when nights are days and days are nights but of course, they were days of partying, of holidaying and not worry about exams, mahjoing til the wee hours of the morning that i wish i now have the energy to do!
But true enough, as they the 'wise' people had warned that working life is like a no return. Once you stepped into it, it's like your feet being stuck to mud. Of course I enjoy the financial independence that I once yearned so much (because i save a lot during uni days so my parents didn't need to spend so much on me!) and I have a great job with a good income that allows me to indulge in anything I want. BUT it is these indulgences that kill me.
It feels like i can't get out of it already. I have to keep working until I die. And i will be getting a house next year, i would die even faster. Anyway the reason I am whining is not because of the course of life I am going through now but I just had a bad day at work yesterday and it really demotivated me a lot. Sorry I am weak but this is who I am.
Being pharmacist in charge, I am liable for what staffs do, well this of course includes their stupidity, their not-listening-properly-and-then-puts-the-blame-on-you problem which I find it very hard to swallow. Honestly why should i be blame if you made a mistake? why should i be liable when if i were you, i wouldn't have done it in the first place?!
BUT this what a boss is supposed to do. It's like a waitress being complained by a customer, the manager has to step up and apologize. ANd honestly I am no boss material because I believe your actions are your own consequences. I can't convince myself to buy into shares for this pharmacy because i really don't think I know how to manage people.
ARgh. so here I am stucked! I need to be boss to feed my indulgences yet I know I won't be satisfied by a meager income if i am not boss? I am just like a big lost greedy monster. I guess I can't have both then?
